{"id":51,"date":"2013-02-21T20:52:00","date_gmt":"2013-02-22T01:52:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/?p=51"},"modified":"2013-02-21T20:53:15","modified_gmt":"2013-02-22T01:53:15","slug":"stepping-into-the-abyss","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/?p=51","title":{"rendered":"Stepping into the Abyss…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\n
\n\t\"\"\n<\/div>\n\n

Stepping in to the abyss\u2026
\nIt\u2019s been 2 months since the Solstice and I\u2019ve been waiting to find my footing again. I\u2019ve come to the conclusion that there is no footing as I have known previously. We have stepped in to the abyss and our feet don\u2019t actually land in a comforting space as we have known previously. This is quite a shake up. At times it seems overwhelming. The clarity, the strength, the knowing that I have been living with evidenced by synchronicities galore, is all shrouded in a veil of uncertainty. Fears are up, within me, and in the world in general. I watch the stories I create when I am afraid. They are powerful, immobilizing, completely paralyzing. I see the reality of this when I am rock climbing. It always astounds me as to what actually stops me in my climb. Sometimes it\u2019s the simplest of moves (simple for my physical body but not my mind); that catches me. I watch myself climb, my physical body being driven by my spirit and the moment that my mind gets involved, I lose myself. Sometimes, that happens because of exhaustion and other times not being able to feel or know where to go. Either way, the outcome is the same, my mind takes over and I don\u2019t know what the next step looks like or feels like. I want to know before I move. I want to know so that I can feel in control, not be caught off guard, not be surprised by a fall, not be surprised by the direction this route is taking me. I am a control freak. I am paralyzed by my fear of not knowing what is ahead of me. This may surprise many of you as I seem to have lived a life filled with taking chances and diving in to the unknown, embracing fears, living in faith and trusting myself. It is true, that is how I have lived for many years and here I am again being shaken to the core, wanting a safety net so that I can predict the outcome before I even take the step.
\nPart of the shifts we are currently experiencing in the world has led me to the awareness that there are no guarantees. This is all unknown. We are walking a new path, a different path. We can sit back and watch others walk their paths and gain a sense of security in that, \u201cif she can do it, I can do it\u201d. There\u2019s nothing wrong with that. Personally, I know that I didn\u2019t come here to waste time watching other people live their lives while I find the courage to dive in. Dive in, jump in, fall in\u2026that is what my life has been looking like for the past couple of years\u2026facing all of my fears, living in them, confronting them every chance I get. I\u2019m not sure why I\u2019m doing this other than I know that I do not want to live a life of fear and if I am immobilized, I am afraid. Where fear resides, love does not exist. I don\u2019t like the feeling of fear and so I face it, immerse myself in it and transcend it. Freedom is not living without fear but knowing I have the strength to transcend it, again and again and again.
\nWhat an exciting time we are living in. Much of our past has been destructive, dehumanizing, devaluing. It has served its purpose so we can resist that what we don\u2019t want and create what we do. Look around\u2026everything is changing! The impossible and unpredictable is happening over and over. There are no certainties. There doesn\u2019t need to be. Being certain of something ensures that we are pulling our history forward with us. This is the time of creation, a new life, a new world\u2026what are you creating for your life?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Stepping in to the abyss\u2026 It\u2019s been 2 months since the Solstice and I\u2019ve been waiting to find my footing again. I\u2019ve come to the conclusion that there is no footing as I have known previously. We have stepped in to the abyss and our feet don\u2019t actually land in a comforting space as we […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[14],"tags":[32,30,31,33],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=51"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=51"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=51"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/livingalldimensions.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=51"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}